Tuesday, 07 April 2009
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Jaw-Ache Inducing Neurosis
So, in a new episode of neurosis, I have started grinding my teeth when I sleep and doing this weird tensing-my-jaw constantly when I'm awake. D told me I was audibly grinding my teeth while I sleep the other night, and I was suprised. Plus, during the day, I can feel myself holding my jaw all tense, but can't concentrate to relax it, which makes me even more neurotic about it, which makes it tense even more!
You know how when you are all focused on one body twitch it's impossible to relax it? To where you can't even remember what is the relaxed, normal way to hold one's jaw? Yeah, it's weird, and I'm attributing it to underlying stress while I wait for a second acceptance from one of the damn literary magazines - some of the irons in the fire should be coming up with a response this week, and it's driving me crazy. And inducing me to a penchant for Advil to calm down my aching jaw and neck.
Other than that, life's good. I finished the numbers obsessed story, titled "The Numeric Plague" and edited it like hell all weekend, then sent it out about 8 places. I think it's the smartest thing I've written, and with the actual rising action, big climax thing, along with intentential irony throughout. I won't hear back about that one for 2 months though, so the waiting game continues, and continues, and continues... Have I mentioned I am not a patient person?
I'm also nothing if not stubborn, so even if it all comes up rejections, I'll keep pounding away at it, re-editing, writing new stuff. I'm not sure if that makes me an optimist or a masochist.
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That's annoying about the jaw-clenching and teeth-grinding. I got that (along with wicked insomnia and anxiety) with the first medication I tried, and I couldn't stand it. I still find myself clenching my jaw at times when I feel really stressed. Hope you can find a way to relax!
When sending stuff out, I encountered the "don't send this to anywhere else but us" phenomenon. Or just... weird restrictions. Like, "if you don't hear from us in a month, you can send it out BUT it might still be accepted, and then you have to withdraw it from other places" stuff. How do you get around that? Maybe I was just looking at unusual magazines.
@immortalwithout - I found officially THE BEST resource on the web for finding lit mags to submit to - it allows you to search by genre, or length, and best of all, but magazines that accept "simultaneous submissions" - so you avoid the problem you've been running into. Yeah, I would go crazy sending stuff out one at a time and waiting like 3 months in between. That's just ridiculous! Here's the link:
http://www.duotrope.com/
It has almost every lit mag - both online and print.
One of my advanced spelling words in fourth grade was "perserverance." Now I know why...so I can leave it in an encouraging comment on your blog!
I'm so impressed that you have the cojones to actually write and submit...I always confined mine to little Xangaland 
@heatheranastasiu -
THANKS!!